[ An apology right off the bat? That's a little surprising. But it does mean this'll probably go well. ]
You came across one of the few who wouldn't take it personally, at least. It was part of your death loss, wasn't it, that made you act that way?
[ He knows exactly what happened, but he also knows that losing his own self-control is one of his largest fears. Hannibal has to at least be annoyed by going through the same thing, so maybe they should talk around it for the moment. ]
[His self control, his ability to raise death and destruction to the level of art, is what separates Hannibal from the common, animalistic murderer. He finds what happened, what he did, extremely distasteful, and is sincerely ashamed.]
Yes. For the two days after I was resurrected, I...lost my self-control. I would not have done what I did otherwise.
[Hannibal has always found the appearance of honesty to be the best policy, telling the truth in an obfuscating way. Everything he's said so far has been true, if misleading.]
Do you believe your friends would be receptive to an apology?
Alfie can't speak privately with anyone- everything he's writing is popping up on the network. And Royce has forgotten- eh, probably at least half a decade, so he's not going to be too receptive to anyone here.
I've lost my sense of touch, if you were curious. Definitely better than when I couldn't tell lies.
He seems to have cooled down a little bit after all this time. And his own couple of murders.
[ He can't particularly enjoy the schadenfreude there, considering John was dealing with mind control at the time. But it's still worth noting. As to the question? ]
It's been...freeing. I was used to changing my alias every other day- having to hold onto 'Zane Taylor' for so long made me feel like I was going to crawl out of my skin.
Maybe not, but at least you'll be prepared for it if the town forces it out of you. It's weird, the people here-
[ How does he even put this, that the majority of people in this place are- surprisingly- not awful? He ultimately decides to go another direction. ]
They're more forgiving than you'd think- other than John, of course. You make a gesture of trying to at least get along here and they mostly leave you alone. The big heroes realized there's not much they can do after the Joker made that clear.
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Re: @godsend, audio, Day 348
Date: 2018-04-08 11:19 pm (UTC)From:Hello, Gabriel.
I apologize for what happened. Please believe me, I was not myself.
[Its true, if not the way most would expect.]
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Date: 2018-04-09 01:28 am (UTC)From:You came across one of the few who wouldn't take it personally, at least. It was part of your death loss, wasn't it, that made you act that way?
[ He knows exactly what happened, but he also knows that losing his own self-control is one of his largest fears. Hannibal has to at least be annoyed by going through the same thing, so maybe they should talk around it for the moment. ]
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Date: 2018-04-09 01:45 am (UTC)From:Yes. For the two days after I was resurrected, I...lost my self-control. I would not have done what I did otherwise.
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Date: 2018-04-09 06:16 pm (UTC)From:That's the death loss I've always been watching out for. I figure it'll get to me eventually, but I've been lucky so far.
But losing control- it gets us all eventually, here.
[ He lets out a small sigh. ] You'll have to apologize to Royce and Alfie, too. I mean, if you don't want them trying to murder you on sight.
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Date: 2018-04-12 01:12 am (UTC)From:[Hannibal has always found the appearance of honesty to be the best policy, telling the truth in an obfuscating way. Everything he's said so far has been true, if misleading.]
Do you believe your friends would be receptive to an apology?
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Date: 2018-04-12 07:29 pm (UTC)From:Maybe give it a few days, so their own losses wear off. They both got annoying ones this time.
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Date: 2018-04-13 02:59 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2018-04-13 06:05 pm (UTC)From:I've lost my sense of touch, if you were curious. Definitely better than when I couldn't tell lies.
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Date: 2018-04-13 11:14 pm (UTC)From:[Hannibal very rarely lied outright. Still, such a price was not something he would like to chance.]
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Date: 2018-04-14 12:53 am (UTC)From:Didn't help that we had one of our 'glitches' and had to communicate through the network. I gave up trying to keep secrets after that trainwreck.
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Date: 2018-04-14 01:52 am (UTC)From:What has it been like, having no secrets?
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Date: 2018-04-14 02:36 am (UTC)From:[ He can't particularly enjoy the schadenfreude there, considering John was dealing with mind control at the time. But it's still worth noting. As to the question? ]
It's been...freeing. I was used to changing my alias every other day- having to hold onto 'Zane Taylor' for so long made me feel like I was going to crawl out of my skin.
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Date: 2018-04-14 02:50 am (UTC)From:I must admit, such radical transparency is...foreign to me. I'm uncertain I would take to it quite as well.
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Date: 2018-04-15 01:10 pm (UTC)From:[ How does he even put this, that the majority of people in this place are- surprisingly- not awful? He ultimately decides to go another direction. ]
They're more forgiving than you'd think- other than John, of course. You make a gesture of trying to at least get along here and they mostly leave you alone. The big heroes realized there's not much they can do after the Joker made that clear.