I really dunno how I'm meant to feel. I guess... I'm okay?
[Oddly okay when he'd come into this conversation feeling despondent, frustrated, and confused. He's still rather miserable, grief-stricken, but there's something.]
Hopeful?
[Mainly hoping that if he really does let go, lets himself crack, and Mary's there again... maybe it's not something he needs to deal with. She's good for him. She's always been good for him. As long as he keeps a check on what's real and what's not, that should be okay. Right? Hannibal seems to think so. Which means he has faith in John's relative mental stability.]
Ask me in a few days. I'll have a better answer. How are you doing? I know you were tortured in those cells with us. If any of that was me... I know I wasn't in my right mind, but I'm so sorry, Hannibal. I really am. You shouldn't have had to go through that. No one should.
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Date: 2018-05-15 03:12 am (UTC)From:Most of the time.
[Some of the time.
... A not insignificant portion of the time.]
I really dunno how I'm meant to feel. I guess... I'm okay?
[Oddly okay when he'd come into this conversation feeling despondent, frustrated, and confused. He's still rather miserable, grief-stricken, but there's something.]
Hopeful?
[Mainly hoping that if he really does let go, lets himself crack, and Mary's there again... maybe it's not something he needs to deal with. She's good for him. She's always been good for him. As long as he keeps a check on what's real and what's not, that should be okay. Right? Hannibal seems to think so. Which means he has faith in John's relative mental stability.]
Ask me in a few days. I'll have a better answer. How are you doing? I know you were tortured in those cells with us. If any of that was me... I know I wasn't in my right mind, but I'm so sorry, Hannibal. I really am. You shouldn't have had to go through that. No one should.